Feel free to skip this. *laughs*
So the NaNo panic is settling in, as I'm sure it is with everyone else that is planning on signing up. I began thinking about one of my more popular stories that I wrote during the time I was immersed in Trek fandom. "Confirmation" was six parts and an epilogue, and it was a sequel to the shorter work "Rumors". It was one of my early solo ventures, one of the first not written under the wing of
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cruisedirector and every once in a while I still receive feedback. It was the summer of 1995. Wow.
I got to thinking last night, that since this was probably the most lengthy thing I'd ever written, that it had to have a wonderfully high word count! So, I just copied it all from my website and pasted it and the prequel into Notepad. I searched and edited out all the '~~~' that I used to divide sections of the chapters, and I purposely didn't include chapter numbers. I then pasted it all into the handy dandy online counter that I used for all of my writing, at
Zokutou.
I discovered that the two of them combined contained a whopping
25,483 words. That is both depressing and encouraging. It's depressing because I was so totally convinced that it was much, much higher, also because it was written eleven years ago when I was in a much different frame of mind about my writing. Face it, I was eleven years younger, I only had two children then, I'd just discovered fanfiction and the internet, and I was on fire! Anything was possible!
I'm in a much different place today, physically, mentally, and just life in general. It means I'm going to have to find something to spark that sort of passion again. A plot that grips me and won't let me sleep at night, characters that own my soul... Oh mercy, I'm in trouble. *g*
I said that it was encouraging, too, and it is. It's encouraging because eleven years later I'm still writing. If I could do that as a novice back then, I can do it as a more experienced writer now. I have to let go of my inner editor and remember that this isn't something I want to post to a mailing list tomorrow, something I want to show someone right now, something that needs to be edited as I go. The goal is to write, the goal is to get it done and let it flow.
This is a totally new concept to me.
We're going to be in NYC from November 21 - 25. I'll have the laptop along, but I know myself. This means I'm going to need to buckle down and get my butt in gear as soon as the clock strikes 12:01 am on November 21st.
All donations of coffee, chocolate and unused muses will be gratefully accepted.
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